That doesn’t even look right. 2023 isn’t a year, it’s some time off in the future.
2022 was actually fairly good, we went on holiday to two different places, we started actually doing stuff to the house (I have been learning about how to patch holes in walls, how to repair the damage I caused when I flooded the house and how to use the 3D printer to make things! We have owned the printer since way before we even considered moving to the US, but never used it because we didn’t have a Windows PC to run it from), we had people come to stay and there were only a couple of trips to the ER room (although they were both on the same day)
And yet.
I still couldn’t post to the Instagram feed, as you can see by my ridiculous top 9…which is it even a top 9 when I only posted 8 times in the year and one of those was the top 9 from the previous year?
I’ve probably said this before, but for me, not posting just kinda builds up and then it becomes this huge thing and then it seems impossible. You know that classic scene from I Love Lucy when they’re wrapping the chocolates at the factory, and at first it’s fine, and then it builds up and then it’s just too much? Thats how not posting feels to me – oh, it’s just one day, but then it’s a week, and a month, and how do you come back from that?
So anyway…
In 2022, I was going to…
- Use my time better
I think I’m better at identifying what needs to get done, and how long it will take, but I don’t feel like I used time better, I just was more aware?
- Stop hiding my interests
I started talking more on social about the things I enjoy and it’s created some interesting conversations but I was hoping to meet more people this way and that didn’t happen because the more involved in a topic people are, the more likely they’re a bit too involved, if that makes sense? I mean, I’m interested in the F1 and can discuss some stuff in more detail but I don’t really care that much about the drivers personal lives, and the way people get obsessive about it is odd. (And you could put that in for any topic really)
- Take more photos
I did take more photos, and I got better at organising them, but I haven’t really done anything with the photos (which is definitely on my project list this year! Alex bought a bunch of frames to do a gallery wall in 2021 (I think) and we still haven’t put them up, never mind find pictures to put in them).
In 2023, I will…
- Find and increase self care
I’m turning 40 this year (ugh) and it’s probably about time that I had some sort of a skincare routine I guess. I’ve never been very good at the basics stuff, but I want to get better at it! Alex has at least finally convinced me to get my hair done properly, not just with a box of dye but I’m not great at getting it done on a regular basis so that’s one area I can do better in.
I’ve been talking about this (and my other resolutions!) with my therapist, and she reminded me that self care isn’t just what you can spend money on but there’s much more to it, so I’m going to be looking at what self care actually is – what boosts my mood? Increasing positive self talk (how I refer and think about myself) is a big part of it, and letting myself actually do these things is something to work on.
- Find a place to get stuff done
Last year I was able to work out what my time was going on, but this year I want to build on that – being at home all the time means home things win out over personal writing, etc. When I used to go to the coffee shop once a week for an afternoon, it gave me a defined time where I couldn’t do things at home like put a wash on and that worked fairly well, so I want to find a place nearer our new house that I can do that again. A small part of why I haven’t done this sooner is COVID worry (I don’t *hate* going out, and I have been starting to go into places without a mask on, but it still feels a little odd) but more than that, I feel anxious when I am going into an unknown situation, and obviously COVID meant that all the things I knew before about a coffee place are different. Can I stay at a location for a while? Does it get crowded? (and then there’s the other things that I need to know before I go, otherwise it’s pointless – does it have good parking (I hate street parking, I refuse to parallel park if I can help it although somehow managed to park Alex’s truck on Front Street recently!), does it have free wifi, etc)
- Do more things
Ooh, descriptive. I said about taking more photos, but most of them were the dogs – I’d like to take more photos of things we do, so we need to do more things!
Want to see older resolutions posts? I’ve been writing these since 2009, and you can find them all here